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...you just entered the depths of my self! Linger and Look! And you are one of those many people who have entered here before:
All kidding aside: every one of you entering here is more than welcome, and shall not be reduced to a number on some counter!

What does this mean..? Well, on this page I shall reveal some of my thoughts, desires, and what I feel like about certain things.... Let's begin forthwith, by telling you something about:

Bisexuality
- most fulfilling love (part 1)

And, to be precise, about me. For all who have not known yet, this is my coming-out message: Yes, I am bisexual... and now I will hear gasps and shrieks of terror, right...? Well, most probably not. And those people who may gasp or shriek might just be the ones I could not care less about. :) (Well,the people I do care about might shriek with sheer joy or love... but that's a different story. :))
But, seriously, I have a certain belief about love. To me, love is strong enough a power to be universal... Meaning, I do love human beings. Period! I can love human beings of any gender (when thinking about hermaphrodytes, I should rather call the topic 'Omnisexuality'...). And since I believe love, and particularly my love being so strong I also do believe in...

Polyamory
- most fulfilling love (part 2)

What is polyamory, then...? It means, being able to love more than one person responsibly, equally, and openly. Polies do not deceive their partners (who most likely are polies as well). This concept of love might contain sex as well, but not necessarily! Polyamory functions also on a spiritual or 'platonic' level. And as far as a full, sex-including poly relationship is concerned, I have to admit that I lack the practice. (HAH! Virgin.. Yep, so what...? :)) I have as yet not had a true poly relationship ('true' as in living together with my lovers), but I do know, that I currently love at least three different people, two women and one man - and they all know, that I do love them, and the feeling is mutual. And there is room for growth. My heart is like a large sunlit meadow, spotted with flowers, where me and my loved ones dance, laugh, celebrate and frolic.
Polyamory and bisexuality, of course, are hunted by a great portion of the society, for intolerance or everyday-fascism reasons. However, polies face many difficulties, as they cannot legalize (on terms of law and tax) their relationships in matrimony, for instance.
Some things to keep in mind about polyamory:
Loving more than one partner

responsibly means, that all stay safe! Rubber (be it condoms or dams) are a must there!! - unless all lovers are certified HIV-negative, that is... in that case, it is a wonderful thing to savour the taste of each other...
openly means, that there is no deception. All know about each other, and enjoy the diversity, shared love and sheer fun that comes from it...
and

equally means, that there is no ranking in lovers. All are treating each other with the same love, caring and tenderness.

However, with the seemingly never-ceasing intolerance in our society, there are dreams of living in a different way... you will see later, what I mean.
By the way: Do you know why the parrot is the symbol of the polyamorous society (if it can be called thus)? One might think, that the being colorful and standing out (proudly) has to do with it... or is it the parrotlike repetition of the intolerant, squawking 'This is not normal, this is not normal' prompting the choice...? Both would fit just perfectly. :)
(actually, the parrot is the symbol of a pun, namely "Pol(l)y, want a cracker?" - and has for this become the symbol of poly groups all over the (net)world. :))
IN order to learn about what polyamory is all about, you might have a look at this Polyamory FAQ page to find out a little more.

Bare Feet
- natural and earth-friendly walking

To me, walking barefoot is the coolest and most attractive way of walking. Bare feet do not smell, they look beautiful, and they do not stomp or clack loudly when stepping on this earth. Bare feet are caring and gentle feet. True lovers, LesBiGay or straight, will know what I mean, as it does enrich the senses (and is also sexually stimulating, as some people of both sexes have told me... :)
And, not to forget: walking barefoot is healthy.
You can see all about the pleasure of barefooting and my bare feet right here .
Note: This is not a fetish page! If there are people who love feet, and want to look at the page, and take delight in my bare feet, please feel free to do so. I would not mind. But, I have to admit, I was not thinking of fetishism when comprising those pages! Just about the pleasures of pedal nudity (as I like to call it... :)). And concerning the 'n' word...:

Nudity
- the most natural clothing is none at all!

Note: The photographer, who did this ( Frank Wallis ) is doing nude photos as an artform. Nudity does not automatically denote porn! The picture in the banner above depicts a woman (called Tracy) out in San Francisco, talking to a friend of hers, just like that. Yes, Tracy (the woman on the left in that picture) *is* nude... (click on the banner to view a larger version of the picture). But as this picture deals with it in an artful way, showing the fun and feeling-well aspect of nudity (click to see Björk that way and you'll know what I mean), it does not depict anything 'explicit' as the rule books call porn and other stuff!
And, furthermore, the looks of her friend plus the happy smiles on both faces denote that both are open, and rather cool people... Who would have a conversation with her naked friend in the street just like that..? And Tracy's clothed friend is standing there in her bare feet! And I always have found barefoot people being the nicest, natural and most open of all. :) So, it's not porn depicted here, but merely the most natural way of clothing in warm weather!

If people now say 'What a shameless thing to do!' I will reply: Yes, indeed... I do not believe in shame or natural sin, as both concepts have been sort of injected into us by restricitve educational agents... (that includes church) Nudity is the most natural thing for a human being. Were it not for social norms, and acceptance reasons, I would walk around everywhere naked in summer, being able to feel everything around me. By the way, this is what in the Rainbow Family is called being 'sky-clad'.

Furthermore, among the Rainbow Family and at Rainbow Gatherings, there are certain sacred events, like prayer and meditation circles, or sacred duties (which are, duties for the best of the whole community gathered there). Being sky-clad during those events is acceper as well as sort of expected and desired, as nudity is seen as being sacred as well... opening body and mind to all of the elements, denying those artifical concepts of 'natural sin' or 'shame'. One piece of ideology (to use the term in a neutral sense) I can adhere to most easily! Also, when being in the water (for fun or cleaning reasons) skinnydipping is allowed and wanted..
'Skinnydipping', as swimming in the nude is commonly known affectionately, is something very nice in general, by the way. However, I have to look for special places for it, since I do not have an official nude beach nearby. But I do know a very special place, where no one minds, and that's where I go in summer, to dip my naked self into a lake. :) It does feel different to swim naked, by the way... do not let anyone tell you otherwise. Try it.

Pity however, that I have not found a place to swim in the nude in the colder seasons (as outdoor swimming might get a bit rough then...). If you know something, please let me know... :)

The image of nudity not being something bad, but normal, and sometimes even sacred, is lived and shown in communites who believe in the Rainbow. And talking about beliefs, here is my view on...

Paganism
- Worshipping the Divine in everything...

Pagans, Witches, Heathens... all these words are either used as derogative terms, or to describe a religious belief, which is centered around the divinity of all creation, of Nature, and human beings alike. Based on the principle, that no two people share the same belief, but that all are linked through nature, the worship of the Creation as a whole, personified by Gaia (also known as The Goddess, or Mother Earth), for instance, seems to be the best way to be religious, as it opens doors to a greater understanding, love and caring for Nature and between people at large. The main underlying principle here is a female principle, however, and therefore, it is quite clear, why Pagans have been always in the way and been prosecuted by the patriarachically-organized, and male-biased other religions. For definitions of Paganist terms and concepts, have a look at A Guide to Nature Spirituality Terms (by Selena Fox at Circle Sanctuary).

I do not mean to try and convince anyone of anything, but I have found this to be the best fitting faith one could have... if you think so too, then join me and others. Merry meet!

Dreams, and the Harsh Reality
- both can hurt or be of sweetest pleasure...

Well! As far as my life is concerned, I am rather happy... but there are some things I would like to do... Let me tell you first of all, what I do to live my being different:

Cross-dressing: well, actually the only thing I do on that part, if it can be called thus, is wearing skirts. I find them being the most comfy garments one could wear in warm weather. Same goes for kaftans.
OK, people tend to give me queer looks (whereas 'queer' is perfectly OK with me...:)), or sometimes giggle and laugh. But consider, what women in the 19th century were confronted with when starting to wear trousers in public. Well, they were insulted, laughed at, sometimes even spat at and slapped! And in the end, this helped installing trousers for women as a rather normal thing. So, why shouldn't guys wear skirts then...? There have been fashion shows with skirts for men... And it looked great, in fact. I know that I might not be the great hero to foster this (and I do not want to be, to be quite honest...). Such a development takes small steps. And I am just one to make them. And since society still thinks, that a skirt is a girl's bit of clothing, I call it cross-dressing and take pride in it, so there! :)
No shoes: Apart from harsh frost temperatures, I am not wearing any shoes, as I feel this the best way to walk (see above).
Tattoos: Got one. And I am inclined, as soon as the financing is all set, to adourn one or both of my feet. I am still thinking about a possible and befitting design.
Jewelry: I sometomes look like a christmas tree with two necklaces, 4 or 5 rings (2 on the fingers, 2 or sometimes 3 on my toes....), anklets and other stuff. However, I think this is not too weird, or dramatic, but yet another piece of the puzzle. :)
Personal Freedom: I think that some things belong into the individual responsibility, like, for example, taking cannabis. I did it, and lliked it. I did not, however slid down into the hard drug scene. It should be legalized, and one of my dreams is a free world on terms of being able to purchase soft drugs (which are mostly less harmful than e.g. alcohol) in general stores!

The dreams I have:

Living in a non-authoritative society, like the Family show us at Rainbow Gatherings.... with a strong sense of universal love, freedom of mind and body, no traditional standards of society, but those of peace, love, understanding and respecting all of our creation. At those gatherings, there are no hierarchic rules, but just the rule of being there for the good of all. All decisions are reached by consensus, thus not needing leaders... A great concept of living if you ask me.
They do think that nudity, for example, is sacred in group prayers and meetings (as already said above...), as your body keeps greatest possible contact with the energies around us. The adjective for being nude in their language is 'sky-clad', and it describes best the way I feel about it. Let the sun see my naked body. I will relish in the feeling of having her kiss it.
Living in a barefoot-friendly place. Australia or New Zealand seem cool enough. For that. Following Peter Jackson's hobbit trail. :o)
Living together with all the people I currently love. (My biggest dream!)

So, here you have all of my 'difference' in a small and neat package. Did you like it...? Then please, let me know, just mail me . I will answer, that's a promise... (even if you did not like it... controversy is part of life... and I know that there are some people out there who might not like my views. Honest criticism, well-argumented, is very welcome. Mere Flame-mail, however, will be deleted. :))
After the refit of my pages is done, I will provide a gateway to a set of links about alternatve beliefs, lifestyles, spirituality and such. Keep your eyes open, and tune in to this page...
Change is bound to happen, and be sure, it will. :o)

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Just one thing, before you leave:
Whatever and whoever you are, live what you are, being happy and proud about it! Never ever let anyone tell you that it is not 'normal', or not 'customary'... This world is not made for mindless herds, just following what any someone has to say is normal or customary! You can help that the world will not become a boring place: just be yourself and be proud of it. :)

Happy Trails & Blessed Be!